Tuesday, June 08, 2010

He is enough.

God has put into each of our lives a void that cannot be filled by the world. We may leave God or put Him on hold, but He is always there, patiently waiting for us...to turn back to him.
-Emilie Barnes

I have reflected several times a day since Amelia's diagnosis on the new knowledge that this world will never offer enough for me. A fact that I knew on paper, but now so deeply feel.

only He is enough.

I have been and continue to be blessed in this life. Blessings of people...my family and dearest friends. It is easy to take these things for granted. And on the flip side, with so many blessings and little worry, fear or suffering it can even be easy to be content with the things of this world. I have to admit that since Tim entered my life 5 years ago, I have felt much too close to satisfied by this world. Things have seemed pretty much perfect...

Amelia has given me many gifts-blessed us in so many ways. The joys and sorrows dance together, and I can no longer distinguish the smiles from the tears.

daily my joys and sorrows bring me back to just one gift;

Amelia has made me homesick.

It is God to whom and with whom we travel, and while He is the end of our journey, He is also at every stopping place.
-Elisabeth Elliot

3 comments:

Jennifer said...

Wow, you are so right. Before Eli, I commented often about how blessed I was because "I had it all". Now I know the true meaning of being blessed. When you hold Amelia in your arms you will know blessings and beauty unlike anything else. It will be a piece of heaven here on earth. Praying for you and your family!

Hannah Rose said...

I know what you mean! I am homesick as well. I just realized you got Amelia's diagnosis the day before my daughter, Lily was born still at 40 weeks, 2 days gestation. So, we were both in the shock stage at the same time. Praying for you!!!

elena said...

I definitely can relate to this post. It truly amazes me how gifted you are at expressing yourself.

love and prayers
elena