God has put into each of our lives a void that cannot be filled by the world. We may leave God or put Him on hold, but He is always there, patiently waiting for us...to turn back to him.
I have reflected several times a day since Amelia's diagnosis on the new knowledge that this world will never offer enough for me. A fact that I knew on paper, but now so deeply feel.
only He is enough.
I have been and continue to be blessed in this life. Blessings of people...my family and dearest friends. It is easy to take these things for granted. And on the flip side, with so many blessings and little worry, fear or suffering it can even be easy to be content with the things of this world. I have to admit that since Tim entered my life 5 years ago, I have felt much too close to satisfied by this world. Things have seemed pretty much perfect...
Amelia has given me many gifts-blessed us in so many ways. The joys and sorrows dance together, and I can no longer distinguish the smiles from the tears.
daily my joys and sorrows bring me back to just one gift;
Amelia has made me homesick.
It is God to whom and with whom we travel, and while He is the end of our journey, He is also at every stopping place.
Tim and I found out we were expecting in November of 2009 and could not have been more thrilled! A little scared as to how we were going to handle a 2 year old and a new baby, but thrilled.
We have always known that God had special plans for our children. March 15, 2010, at a routine 20 week ultrasound, Amelia was diagnosed with Anencephaly; a fatal neural tube defect said to affect one child for every 1000 births and 3 in 10,000 live births.
Knowing her life expectancy after birth was only minutes to hours, we chose to carry Amelia to term and created this blog/journal to record her short time here on earth.
We hope to use this blog as both a journal and record of Amelia's time with us here on earth and as a way to share with family and friends the day to day joys and sorrows of this pregnancy. We believe that life is a precious gift of God and rejoice in the blessings God has given in our children.
God is good.
Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Matthew 19:14
For a long time there were only your footprints and laughter in our dreams, and even from such small things, we knew we could not wait to love you forever. Brian Andreas