Wednesday, March 23, 2011

33 Weeks - more on heaven

So that book really got me focused on heaven this past week...
so much so I might risk forgetting the blessing of being alive,
right here-right now! :)
In this life I feel so very blessed.
In my youth I recall something deep inside me always pushing for
more, more, more
Never settle
Never be satisfied

Looking back my mantra fit my goals
...the inner most desires of my heart.
Things have changed a bit in the past few years.
My mantra has changed - my heart has changed.
I no longer have the same goals.
I'd like to say the switch is
more cross sighted than my youth,
and it is, some days.

As I have mentioned several times before,
Amelia has changed several things about me,
how I see the world,
and how I want to exist in it.
But mostly, she has made me homesick.
I just can't wait for that day.
The question becomes,
what should I do with myself in the meantime.
Lucky for me, a 2.5 year old son, full time job,
church activities, a husband and a new little one on the way
are doing just fine at keeping me occupied. :)
Am I really this lucky?
I am still amazed at what God has entrusted me with.

While my heart seems in limbo
half bound here on earth
and half uplifted to the heavens,
I still have work to do right here in river city.
(sorry - just couldn't resist the obscure musical pun)
Seriously though,
I am still here.
and I have some seriously big baby booties to fill in my lifetime,
don't I!

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; 
I have come that they may have life and have it to the full."
John 10:10
  "Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life. 
No one comes to the Father except through me."
John 14:6

"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; 
he will never leave you nor forsake you. 
Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." 
 Deuteronomy 31:8


Unknown said...

It isn't always easy to have your heart in 2 places. I know I've never longed for Heaven the way I do now

Joanna said...

That is such a nice way to put it. When I confided in close friends that I longed for heaven too, I had to clarify that I wasn't suicidal...I just don't fear death as much as before, knowing that I'll see my angel there. I also feel like I understand much better the sacrifice that God made in offering His only Son for us - definitely a new perspective on things!!

Kara said...

I agree with this so much. And with Holly and Joanna. What a glorious day that will be! And yes - big baby booties to fill! =)

Jennifer said...

I completely get this post. I totally feel the same way. Heaven is a sweet longing. Here is where God needs me now...but one day...

Rachel's Mama said...

very big baby booties!!

Brooke said...

I can't believe you are 33 weeks...praying for you and your longing for your sweet girl during this journey! Love you!