Wednesday, August 25, 2010

4 Weeks & Noah's Birthday

If God is here for us and not elsewhere,
then in fact this place is holy and this moment is sacred.
Isabel Anders

Today marks 4 weeks since the birth of Amelia Grace.
It is also our son Noah's 2nd birthday.
We are planning a trip to the zoo with Gramma J.
We went to the zoo every chance we could while we were pregnant with Amelia.
It will always be a special place.
It is the first time I have been there without her
and my heart is breaking
yet, I can't imagine a place I'd rather be
to mark this milestone.

I found myself lying in bed in the early hours this morning
recalling her birth and the moments, hours and days that followed.
Strangely the images of her body after death are more vivid
while my memories of those moments seem more distant
as if I were watching the moments unfold
rather than being a part of them.

My memories of her alive are cloudy and unsequential and yet they are so filled with her spirit and a peace that I cannot put down in words.
It was as close to heaven as I have ever been.

Amelia Grace Lorang was born at 9:02 am
on a Wednesday
at Bergan Mercy Hospital in Omaha, Nebraska.
She was radiant.
To me it was just as it was in Bethlehem
so many years ago.
The world was silent and the only thing that mattered
was one precious little baby,
love's pure light.

Silent night, holy night
All is calm, all is bright
Round yon Virgin Mother and Child
Holy Infant so tender and mild
Sleep in heavenly peace
Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, holy night!
Shepherds quake at the sight
Glories stream from heaven afar
Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!
Christ, the Saviour is born
Christ, the Saviour is born

Silent night, holy night
Son of God, love's pure light
Radiant beams from Thy holy face
With the dawn of redeeming grace
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth
Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth "

Happy Birthday sweet baby girl.
We love you and miss you beyond words.



Lori said...

Continuing daily to lift you in prayers and peace for your heart....

pennynjon said...

Happy Birthday to Noah! That sounds like a perfect way to celebrate. I will be thinking about you today. I know it will be bittersweet. ((hugs))

Jennifer said...

Thinking about you and praying that your trip to the zoo will be a sweet one. Happy Birtday Noah! Bigs hugs coming your way!

Lisette said...


CynthiaS said...

Happy birthday to Noah! keeping you in my prayers!

Unknown said...

Happy birthday Noah! I love this post, I do believe we got a glimpse of heaven through them. Praying and thinking of you. *hugs*