Wednesday, August 18, 2010

3 Weeks

It was just about this time 3 weeks ago that we were welcoming our sweet little Amelia into the world. It was a wonderful day that I will cling to all my life. What a blessing she was and continues to be.

I absolutely love receiving emails from people who have followed Amelia's story and have allowed God to work in their lives through her small but mighty life. It gives me just the smallest peek into the greater plans God intends for her life on earth and in heaven. It brings me so much joy to know you have been touched, as we have, by our Amelia Grace. Thank you for your emails and for sharing your story with us.

My days remain filled with both the joy of being Amelia's mother and the sorrows of being the mother of a baby who went to heaven long before we were ready to say goodbye.

Yesterday as we traveled, the sky was dark as we enjoyed (yet another) rainy day. The rain will forever remind me of our little Amelia, as the months that I carried her were filled with rain, flooding and more rain. In a previous blog entry, I reflected on God's promise "that it will not rain forever." Yesterday, God renewed that promise with our family. As we drove, we were blessed with not one, but two rainbows. I know, I know, a rainbow is common place, and far from a miracle. And still, Tim and I could not recall the last time we had seen one. We marveled over the colors, thought of our little girl, and the promises God has already fulfilled in our lives and the lives of "strangers" through her brief life.

We know God loves us and will not abandon us.
I know it,
but it sure feels good to be reminded sometimes.
Just in case
we lose sight of His rainbow
through the clouds.

Then God said, “I am giving you a sign of my covenant with you and with all living creatures, for all generations to come. I have placed my rainbow in the clouds. It is the sign of my covenant with you and with all the earth. When I send clouds over the earth, the rainbow will appear in the clouds, and I will remember my covenant with you and with all living creatures. Never again will the flood waters destroy all life. When I see the rainbow in the clouds, I will remember the eternal covenant between God and every living creature on earth.” Then God said to Noah, “Yes, this rainbow is the sign of the covenant I am confirming with all the creatures on earth.”
Genesis 9:12-17


Hannah Rose said...

Amelia Grace has touched many people deeply, including myself. She is so precious. I like to think my Lily gets to be friends with her and they can sit on Jesus' lap together.

I too feel such joy that I get to be such a special little girl's mother, but I do not like to have to mother her from the earthly realm while she is in the eternal.

Rainbows are always so special and captivating, even after seeing them so many times. The lovely hues are just breathtaking and when you actually think deeply about what the rainbow symbolizes, it makes it so much more wonderful.

Today clouds are looming above. I really don't like rainy days because they make me feel sad. Some days when it rains, I feel like I could just mope around all day and listen to the rain against the windows. It reminds me of March 16th, the day Lily was born. It was cold, gloomy, and rainy. It seemed to match how I felt. It seemed that all of heaven was crying and had broken hearts as my family's world was shattered.

I remember reading on a blog a few months back that rain symbolizes that the Holy Spirit is near. Maybe you should look into that. The day of her memorial service it rained and I felt the presence of God so real that day. Then, the day we put her into the earth, it was blue skies and sunny. Just perfect weather as I had prayed. Then, the following day it was rainy and gloomy again. It seemed to symbolize the perfect mixture of sorrow and joy. Bittersweet. And the Lord was near, so I thought it was special that it had rained.

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Melissa said...

I always wish that I had more eloquent and uplifting words to share. However, please know that your family has inspired me more than you can imagine. Everyday, I pray that the Lord help you find comfort and that Amelia will continue to touch the lives of others.

pennynjon said...

How awesome that you saw two rainbows! I definitely believe that Amelia touched many lives...I know she touched mine! I know that God is still using her. I am parying for ya'll and sending love and hugs your way!

Jennifer said...

Three weeks, feels like moments and years all rolled into one doesn't it? Rain is special to us also! We had strong thunderstorms the night Eli died. I love when one blows through now. It is so sweet that you saw two rainbows. Missing sweet little miss Amelia with you!

Lori said...

I was so, so grateful that the day of Matthew's funeral was one of rain and dreary weather. It certainly matched my feelings and mood, and I think I might have bristled at a beautiful sunny day as my world was in pieces.

Rainbows have never meant too much more to me than being part of the wonders of God's creation, but I have to admit that after losing Matthew, when seeing them (and I've seen one or two!), they've come at times when I simply just KNEW they were God's way of letting me know that His covenant remains and He is faithful.

Continuing to keep your family in prayer...

Unknown said...

I think I love seeing rainbows now more than ever.

Unknown said...

I am with Holly, I too love seeing rainbows even more now. They mean so much more than before and that's saying a lot cause I always looked to rainbows as "God's promise" to us. Thank you for sharing your rainbows with us.