Wednesday, June 15, 2011

45 Weeks - yup, still sending us butterflies

Notice the "A" on the butterfly?

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This photo was sent to me yesterday from a baby loss mommy friend of mine named Stacy.

She has had this stone for sometime...I hope she won't mind me sharing the story (in part) of this little stone and why it means so much to her
and me.
You see I am quite certain that her Rachel and my Amelia are buddies up in heaven. :)
And though her Mom and I have yet to meet, we walk the twisty path through our grief side by side.

As many baby loss mommy will tell you,
we each have little things that remind us of our babies.
I have often referred to them here as Godwinks. ;)
For us butterflies have taken on special meaning since Amelia's death, for Stacy and her Rachel, it's daisies.
I love getting little emails from Stacy - this excerpt from her recent message to me was no exception. 

"I bought this little rock before Matt & I got married.  I got it at my favorite greenhouse and we used this saying on the favors we gave out (1/2 of them were flower seed packets and 1/2 were candles and we had a different saying and verse on each.)  The flower packets said "todays seeds are tomorrows flowers" and had the Romans 8:28 verse - God works all things together for the good of those who love Him.
So, the other day, I was looking at this rock and it dawned on me that it has daisies on it... I mean, I knew it but didn't KNOW it (if you know what I mean) remember my post about how daisies ended up being a big part of my wedding without meaning it?  Well, I was looking at this rock getting all sad about Rachel and I then noticed that it also has a butterfly on it... I looked closer and no joke, the butterfly has an "A" on it.  Not sure if it's supposed to be part of the detail or if it's the artists initial, but I had never noticed it before.  I've had this sitting on a shelf in my bathroom for years and this all came to me the other day.
Then at my moms, I'm not sure if this comment came through to you the other day since I'm having so much trouble with them, but this beautiful butterfly was hanging out with us for a while.  It was big and yellow.  Isaiah was thrilled about it!  I've never seen a butterfly hang around humans like that before.  I tried to comment that night on your blog to tell you about it and let you know I was thinking of Amelia.  But the next day I went up there to swim again and the same butterfly was with us for over an hour again!
Yep, I think our girls are buddies up there :o) ♥"

Thanks Stacy! 
Thanks girls, we miss you and love you so much!

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. 
Philippians 3:12-14
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Kara said...

AMAZING!! How sweet, comforting and amazing!

pennynjon said...

That is so sweet!!

CynthiaS said...

That is awesome!

Anonymous said...

This is a beautiful story...I believe both girls are in heaven and smiling on each of you mommies knowing a joy we can only imagine. I look forward to meeting both of them in our Heavenly home...God Bless.

Amy von Oven said...

I love this story....Just another way of how God works!

Jennifer said...

I love these special winks! I've been thinking of you and sweet little Amelia Grace lately! Love you mama! How are you feeling?

Unknown said...

How truly special!