Tuesday, August 24, 2010

My Sunshine

I am changed in so many ways
because she was here.
I feel at a loss
unable to explain the way I now see things.

the darkness
the light
the beauty
the emptiness
of this world for me

I have tried to blog at least twenty times
but nothing really comes out the way
I want it to.

But I saw this flower a few weeks back
on our first family outing without her.
When I saw it
it just reminded me of her
and of a sweet song
I never got to sing her.
I sang it to Noah
and Amelia today.

I hope she heard.

You are my sunshine
my only sunshine
you make me happy
when skies are gray
You'll never know dear
how much I love you
please don't take
my sunshine away.


4 comments:

elena said...

What a pretty flower, and I LOVE that song. It makes me tear up. Can definitely relate in there are songs I never got to sing that I hope Lilly can hear.

I know Amelia heard you today.

*hugs*

Tracy said...

I've been following your blog and your journey since Bethany Actually posted about it. I wanted to thank you for sharing your joy and grief. I also wanted you to know that is helping me in my own grief (my mother is dying). Your posts have given me comfort. It has been an unexpected comfort and I am grateful to you. Thank you.

Jennifer said...

Even when I was little that song would bring tears to my eyes. Wow, this was a beautiful post. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. xoxo

Anonymous said...

The tears would not stop when I read about Noah (happy late b-day) wanted "ahhfly for sisa." What a wonderful child who loves his sisa so much. My "fram" always sang my sunshine to us. In fact when she passed away that's what we sung to her. My fram loved her grandchildren and great grandchldren and her Kids Place kids so much. I always like to think that she is holding little Amelia. Love you! Kay