4 Weeks & Noah's Birthday

If God is here for us and not elsewhere,
then in fact this place is holy and this moment is sacred.

Isabel Anders

 

Today marks 4 weeks since the birth of Amelia Grace.

It is also our son Noah's 2nd birthday.

We are planning a trip to the zoo with Gramma J.

We went to the zoo every chance we could while we were pregnant with Amelia.

It will always be a special place.

It is the first time I have been there without her

and my heart is breaking

yet, I can't imagine a place I'd rather be

to mark this milestone.

I found myself lying in bed in the early hours this morning

recalling her birth and the moments, hours and days that followed.

Strangely the images of her body after death are more vivid
while my memories of those moments seem more distant
as if I were watching the moments unfold
rather than being a part of them.

My memories of her alive are cloudy and unsequential and yet they are so filled with her spirit and a peace that I cannot put down in words.
It was as close to heaven as I have ever been.

Amelia Grace Lorang was born at 9:02 am
on a Wednesday

at Bergan Mercy Hospital in Omaha, Nebraska.
She was radiant.

To me it was just as it was in Bethlehem
so many years ago.

The world was silent and the only thing that mattered

was one precious little baby,
love's pure light.

 

Silent night, holy night

All is calm, all is bright

Round yon Virgin Mother and Child

Holy Infant so tender and mild

Sleep in heavenly peace

Sleep in heavenly peace

Silent night, holy night!

Shepherds quake at the sight

Glories stream from heaven afar

Heavenly hosts sing Alleluia!

Christ, the Saviour is born

Christ, the Saviour is born

Silent night, holy night

Son of God, love's pure light

Radiant beams from Thy holy face

With the dawn of redeeming grace

Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth

Jesus, Lord, at Thy birth "

Happy Birthday sweet baby girl.
We love you and miss you beyond words.

Mommy