Wednesday, May 23, 2012

no words. just love.

It's Wednesday,
again.
And it was almost a wordless one
but I just had to tell you one more time
I miss you. I love you. Can't wait to see you...

not that I'm counting but
it's been
665 days.
I miss you. every. single. day.

not one of the 57,456,00 seconds since your birth has gone by
that my love was not with you

not one second.


My River runs to thee
Blue Sea! Wilt welcome me?
My River wait reply
Oh Sea, look graciously
I'll fetch thee Brooks
From spotted nooks
Say, Sea, Take Me!
 
Emily Dickinson

"Her life had moved on, and she tried her best to live in the moment. But their baby remained in the shadows, a constant presence, there in Emma's mind the way the date or day of the week was there. She didn't go through the hours reminding herself constantly that this was Friday. It simply was Friday. And that fact stayed subtly with her, coloring the background of everything else about the day. It was like that with their baby." ~Karen Kingsbury



5 comments:

Hannah Rose said...

I know just what you mean. I miss my girl every single day too. Every second. Every moment that goes by without her. Though the grief changes, it is ever present. You just learn to live with it more. You learn that the raw days will still come, yet there will be good days too. Our love is always with our sweet girls. I'm sure they are good buddies in Heaven! :-) Maybe they sit on Jesus' lap together. I like that idea.

I wrote a quote on my blog recently that I read in a book:

"Her life had moved on, and she tried her best to live in the moment. But their baby remained in the shadows, a constant presence, there in Emma's mind the way the date or day of the week was there. She didn't go through the hours reminding herself constantly that this was Friday. It simply was Friday. And that fact stayed subtly with her, coloring the background of everything else about the day. It was like that with their baby." ~Karen Kingsbury

Losing Lily and loving Lily colors every moment of my every day. Though I don't think of her nonstop, she is always there, in the back of my mind, in the midst of everything. March makes it even easier to remember and miss her. My mom said just as her four living children are always in her thoughts, it is only natural for me as a mother to have my child in my thoughts. Just because she isn't here doesn't change that mother's love.

You and sweet Amelia Grace are always on my heart. Even after all this time and all the blogs I've read and come across, yours continues to be one of my very favorites.

Much love, hugs, and blessings in Jesus,
Hannah Rose

Jennifer said...

Love you friend! Right there with you.
Who could love them more?

Melissa said...

only Him Jennifer.

:)

Stacy said...

Still thinking of you and your girl every day. Is that quote from Karen in the book with the anencephalic baby?? email me... love you!

CynthiaS said...

This one pulled at my heart, so beautifully said!