Wednesday, March 14, 2012

waiting for the darkness

The weather outside today is nothing short of GORGEOUS! The last time I was out the thermometer on my SUV read 75 degrees!!

and still,
as the daylight ticks away I feel a change in the weather looming
as tears threaten --- cresting my lower lids.
My throat is tight as I swallow them away.
The tension is building.
The darkness is biding its time
waiting to swallow me up.

2 years tomorrow

Despite the sunshine pouring down outside the walls of my office, the darkness has already begun to wrap itself around my shoulders. The black hole of a day that awaits me. D-day. 
It's smothering.

Has it really been 2 years? I may as well have just heard those cold, haunting words for the first time today.

incompatible with life

So, I am starting, in the sunshine of today, to wrap my heart in a blanket of hope. I am turning to the only thing I know that has the power to concur the cold darkness of tomorrow.

His light.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. 

2 Corinthians 4:16-18  So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. 

Romans 15:13  May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. 

Zephaniah 3:17 The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.

If you have a minute tomorrow --- I have a HUGE favor to ask.
would you mind?
If you feel compelled, would you send me a verse you love?
A verse of comfort.
A verse of  hope.
A verse of LOVE
a verse to light the way though a very dark day.
It would mean so much. truly.

you can post it here in the comments
or email it to me at


Shauna said...
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Shauna said...

Thinking of you and Amelia Grace today. <3 ((HUGS))

Psalms 46:10
Be still. and know that I am God.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

Isaiah 41:10
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: Be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; Yea I will help thee; Yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Anonymous said...

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.”

All my love and encouragement,

Jennifer said...

Love you sweet friend!

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: Not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

Hugs to you!

Marsha said...

Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.

Thinking of you today.

Unknown said...

sending lots of love

one of my fav verses is Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Hannah Rose said...

All these Scriptures you and others shared are favorites. Here's another beautiful one that I thought goes well with your talking about the darkness and Jesus being the light in the darkness:

"Weeping may last for the night, but joy comes with the morning." ~Psalm 30:5

You and your girl are on my mind and heart. I thought of you last week, remembering what March 15th was for you. I will always remember that because March 16th, 2010 was the day my precious girl was born. Both our worlds were turned upside down within a day from each other.

I too cannot believe it's been 2 years...only and already.

HE is the light. HE alone is the hope. Keep clinging to Him.

You, my dear, are an amazing writer. One can just feel your emotions through your beautiful words. Keep writing. Keep loving.
I'm loving your girl with you.

Many prayers and blessings,
Hannah Rose