Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Blessings - Letting Go

Since Amelia's diagnosis
we have been blessed with several "lessons in life."
These lessons have transformed before our eyes from cliche
to the foundation of our lives and of our family.

Let Go and Let God is one of these lessons.
There was nothing I could do to save my daughter. simple as that.
Learning to Let Go and Let God in the loss of Amelia, surfaced a serious need for self examination of my desire to control the various aspects my life; my home, my job, my money.
I asked myself...
if I can trust my Lord completely with the HUGE things
why haven't I been trusting Him with everything else?

Recently I was prompted to reflect on a verse that moved me.
It reminded me so much of the sweet blessings revealed to me throughout our journey with Amelia.

 And let the beauty of the LORD our God be upon us,
And establish the work of our hands for us; 
Yes, establish the work of our hands.
 Psalm 90:17 (NKJV)

And let  Surrender to Him.  I often find myself too busy trying to control things and  forget to let go and let God. Even more so, I can easily buy into the ideology that somehow my plan, my idea of how the way things should be, is better than God's.
beauty Did you see her? She was beautiful. One of my worries while carrying Amelia was (shamefully) fear about her appearance as a result of her condition. In the end her physical beauty would not have changed the way I saw her; the way I loved her. It comforts me to think that that is just how God see me, with the love of a parent. Just plain wonderful isn't it!!!
the LORD our God our Creator, Amelia's creator...
be upon us  rest upon us. I felt Him with me every step of the way but never more so than in that hospital room as she rested upon me. I cannot explain that peace.
and establish only God can do it all. Letting go and letting God demands that you recognize just exactly who is running the show.
the work of our hands raising children, making a home, working at a job, following His calling...carrying Amelia
Yes, establish the work of our hands the blessings we are given, our talents, our time, our fortunes...they are all given to us to use in service to Him and to others.

Bottom line, when we Let Go and Let God work in our lives,
AMAZING things happen.
Beautiful things happen.

But now, O LORD,
are our Father;
are the clay, and You our potter;
      And all we
are the work of Your hand. 
Isaiah 64:8

 Be still, and know that I
am God;
         I will be exalted among the nations,
         I will be exalted in the earth!
Psalm 46:10


Jennifer said...

Thank you so much for sharing your heart today! I needed this!

CynthiaS said...

Love this, this has been on my heart lately also. Mostly because I was able to give up my control when pregnant with Olivia but went so far the other way with Claire's pregnancy.
Thanks for sharing, it's a wonderful reminder!

Rachel's Mama said...

good stuff, Melissa...hard stuff. I feel so blessed to call you friend and to know Amelia through you. you are a blessing to me. And,yes, that girl was beautiful!

Amy von Oven said...

Let Go and Let God is one of my FAVORITE things to say....I wrote it in my book and OFTEN have to remind myself of it!!!!!