plan to be still

There have been many prayers, tears and joy in the 2 weeks since we first learned of our precious baby girl's condition. Last week Tim and I met with Dr. Kirsch (our OB) and shared with him our "plan" for Amelia's birth and life. The long and short - We plan to carry her to term and deliver her via c-section. She is a miraculous work of the Lord (the meaning of Amelia) and we are honored to care for her until God takes her home to rest in the arms of her heavenly father.

As I type, Amelia is rolling and kicking away. I am in awe of God's creation.

What a roller coaster the past few weeks have been. I'm not sure where to start (I know, I know, me at a loss for words is hard to fathom!)

I suppose I could list all of the emotions and ranges of those emotions that I have felt,

I could list all of the people who have comforted, educated, strengthened, surrounded, and uplifted me,

I could and should say thank you to those people (you will never know how much you have given with the smallest act of kindness or the simplist of prayers),

I could delve into my grief, my guilt, my fears, my OCD and planning, my hopes...

I think for today I will just be still and feel my baby girl move.

"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10