Monday, March 29, 2010

plan to be still

There have been many prayers, tears and joy in the 2 weeks since we first learned of our precious baby girl's condition. Last week Tim and I met with Dr. Kirsch (our OB) and shared with him our "plan" for Amelia's birth and life. The long and short - We plan to carry her to term and deliver her via c-section. She is a miraculous work of the Lord (the meaning of Amelia) and we are honored to care for her until God takes her home to rest in the arms of her heavenly father.

As I type, Amelia is rolling and kicking away. I am in awe of God's creation.

What a roller coaster the past few weeks have been. I'm not sure where to start (I know, I know, me at a loss for words is hard to fathom!)

I suppose I could list all of the emotions and ranges of those emotions that I have felt,

I could list all of the people who have comforted, educated, strengthened, surrounded, and uplifted me,

I could and should say thank you to those people (you will never know how much you have given with the smallest act of kindness or the simplist of prayers),

I could delve into my grief, my guilt, my fears, my OCD and planning, my hopes...

I think for today I will just be still and feel my baby girl move.

"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth." Psalm 46:10

1 comment:

Hannah Rose said...

Her name is beautiful!! I just got chills over the meaning of it. I love how the Lord takes such delight and care over the choosing of names for His precious little lambs. The entire time I was pregnant, I knew Lily was a girl and had the name Lily in my mind for a long while. It's like the Lord whispered to my soul that Lily (meaning pure and innocent) was a reflection of my renewed innocence and purity IN HIM. Redemption. Then, when I was choosing her middle name, I chose Katherine, not knowing what it meant. I soon discovered it too means purity. Coincidence? I know the Lord gave me her name and it humbles me greatly. Then, when I delivered Lily, knowing she was in the arms of our Maker, I suddenly realized how her name took on a whole new meaning and beauty. Not only was she a reflection of my renewal in Christ, but she would forever be pure, innocent, untainted, and white as snow.